Let’s Talk About Medical Gaslighting

I know, some of you are scratching your heads.

Medical gaslighting may be a totally new term to you.

If that’s you, consider it a blessing that you haven’t been acquainted with the topic for yourself. I urge you to read on anyways.

For others of you, those two words stir up memories and traumas within you that you’d rather forget. Trust me, I get it. I really do.

I want to forget too. But I’m choosing to speak up instead. I may not be able to change what happened to me, but I might be able to make a difference in someone else’s experience.

What is medical gaslighting?

To gaslight is to “manipulate (someone) by psychological means into questioning their own sanity”.
-Oxford Dictionary

“Gaslighting is a form of psychological manipulation in which a person or a group covertly sows seeds of doubt in a targeted individual, making them question their own memory, perception, or judgement, often evoking in them cognitive dissonance and other changes such as low self-esteem.”

Medical gaslighting is what happens when doctors refuse to take their patients seriously, either by ignoring the patient’s symptoms, misleading the patient about a diagnosis, or accusing the patient of lying or fabricating information about symptoms.

This is a real and dangerous problem in the medical world that I have been personally affected by.

Medical gaslighting is a problem that is increasingly prevalent in the chronic pain community. I have read so many blogs, books, articles, and social media posts that chronicle personal accounts of medical gaslighting.

So today, I want to share a part of my story with you in greater detail. I’m not sharing this for pity and I’m not sharing this out of bitterness for my doctors. In fact, I’m choosing not to share my doctor’s names in this article at all.

I simply want to raise awareness about the issues regarding medical gaslighting. I’m speaking up because I know so many people are hurt by the medical system, much worse than I was. I want others who have experienced medical gaslighting to know that they are not alone.

My Experience with Medical Gaslighting

The story I want to share with you starts back in 2017, following my lupus misdiagnosis. (my whole medical story is overviewed here if you want some context).

I was referred to a rheumatologist by my pediatrician to discuss my recent lupus diagnosis and explore other possible diagnoses. I was dealing with crippling fatigue and body aches at the time. When I arrived at the specialist’s (at a renowned children’s hospital, mind you), I was taken care of mostly by a young nursing student. We discussed my symptoms, my medical history, my current diagnosis, and my lab work. She reported all of this to the rheumatologist. Eventually the rheumatologist came back into the room and did a brief exam of his own. Within 5-10 minutes, he told me 4 important things.

1. “You don’t have lupus.”
This was the only good news that came from this appointment.
2. “You definitely have amplified musculoskeletal pain syndrome.”
This was a conclusion he came to within minutes of seeing my medical records and before he actually saw me in person. He slapped this diagnosis on me without hesitation, much less a proper exam or any medical testing.
3. “You have a 95% chance of full recovery if you follow our treatment plan.”
Yes, that was the actual statistic quoted to me. This was a completely unfair thing to tell me. I followed the suggested treatments to the letter and my condition only grew worse (which they later blamed me for). I’m appalled that I was basically promised a full recovery. I didn’t know any better than to believe them. I was 16.
4. “You’re too sensitive.”
This was the most blatant example of gaslighting from that day. I was paying this rheumatologist hundreds of dollars for a 10-minute consult so he could tell me that I was too sensitive to my pain… life-altering pain that had brought my vibrant, active teenage years to a screeching halt. I honestly felt like I had been punched in the stomach and I almost cried right there in the exam room. After the pain I had already been through and the stress of being misdiagnosed with lupus, being invalidated like that by a doctor was incredibly dehumanizing and embarrassing. This doctor’s words made me question the validity of my pain. It made me feel insane while simultaneously giving him a pass to not do his job well.

Over two years later, I was reviewing my medical records with another doctor in 2019 because I had not recovered from my illness and my health had hit an all-time low. I was still dealing with 24/7, life-altering physical pain which was resulting in intense mental health issues. It was at this time that I was informed what my rheumatologist had written in my chart back in 2017. He had written that I was severely depressed and that was contributing to my pain and fatigue. He came to this conclusion and wrote it in my chart after a 5-10 minute appointment without any mental health screening and without discussing it with me or my mom (who was with me at the time because I was still a minor).

My new doctor was nearly as frustrated as I was to find such an unfounded conclusion that I was completely unaware of in my official medical records. When I saw my rheumatologist back in 2017, I was kinda depressed. Who wouldn’t be? I was depressed because I was in pain and fatigued and I didn’t know why. I was not in pain because I was depressed. My more recent doctors have been fantastic at making this critical distinction.

No matter how you look at this story, these two things remain true.

  •  My pain was invalidated by my rheumatologist.
  •  Prevalent, unfounded medical information about my mental health was officially recorded and withheld from me and my legal guardian.

This, my friends, is medical gaslighting. Unfortunately, this wasn’t the only time I experienced it. This particular case cost me time and money and it did some really awful things to my mental health as a 16-year-old. I was new to the chronic illness life and had no clue how to advocate for myself. I also had no idea what medical gaslighting even was at the time.

That’s why it’s important for me to share this story with you. I want you to know that not every doctor is going to listen to you. Not every doctor is going to believe you.

Heck, they might even call you too sensitive for experiencing life-altering pain and being brave enough to speak up about it.

It doesn’t make you crazy. It doesn’t make you a hypochondriac. It doesn’t make you a liar.

If you think you are a victim of medical gaslighting, I want you to know that there is hope.

Next week, I’m hoping to share some practical ways to respond to medical gaslighting and share tips I wish I had known on how to advocate for yourself.

Come back then and we’ll chat. It’s time to talk about medical gaslighting.


5 thoughts on “Let’s Talk About Medical Gaslighting

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  1. It so sad that this happens and that people get invalidated for them expressing their symptoms and just wanting help. I was dismissed over a year from my own GP surgery with several doctors telling me categorically I had IBS and nothing more without further tests. Well as it happens I was diagnosed with Crohn’s the following year after a referall. So it shows they can be wrong. Thank you for highlighting this with your post.

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  2. Thank you for sharing. This is an all too important topic that no one seems to talk about. Sometimes being a patient is like taking on a full-time job to learn how to advocate for yourself, and pursue second and third opinions after the first doctor tries to tell you nothing at all is wrong.

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    1. Yes, exactly! It takes so much time and energy… I’m sorry you can relate so well to my story, but I hope you found it encouraging to know that you’re not alone 💛


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